As we kiss hard on the lips and swear this year will be better than the last.

2017 year in review and goals for 2018.
I never make goals for the year but maybe if I put it in writing… on a public place then I will actually attempt to carry them through? Only one way to find out… Continue reading As we kiss hard on the lips and swear this year will be better than the last.

If it’s not you in my heart, I don’t want to carry it on.

First blog since September. Besides pictures or videos, I guess.

In that time I got a job, quit a job, got a new job, got a house, fell in love with my wife again (it happens nearly every day.)

My new job is stay at home dad. It has good hours, little pay and no benefits. Unless hanging out with your awesome kids is a benefit? It definitely is. Plus Stef is usually working 3 nights a week so we have 4 days to hang out together which is more time than we’ve ever had so yeah, there are some benefits. Continue reading If it’s not you in my heart, I don’t want to carry it on.

2016 Film List

La La Land
Swiss Army Man
Pete’s Dragon
Everybody Wants Some
The Nice Guys
Hidden Figures

20th Century Women
Why Him?
A Bigger Splash
The Hollars
Deepwater Horizon
Rainbow Time
Bad Santa 2
Miss Peregrin’s Home for Peculiar Children
The Light Between Oceans
Patriot’s Day
Blair Witch
Kate Plays Christine
Nocturnal Animals
Thunder Road (Short)
The Edge of Seventeen
Other People
Keeping Up With the Joneses
The Fits
Toni Erdmann
Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them
The Founder
The Girl on the Train
The Autopsy of Jane Doe
Hidden Figures
Hacksaw Ridge
David Brent: Life on the Road
Star Wars Rogue One
La La Land
The Magnificent Seven
A Monster Calls
American Honey
The Red Turtle
Manchester By The Sea
Don’t Think Twice
The Birth of a Nation
War Dogs
Office Christmas Party
Jason Bourne
Little Sister
Doctor Strange
Wizard Mode
King Cobra
Blue Jay
Don’t Breathe
Life, Animated
Bad Moms
Independence Day: Resurgence
The Infiltrator
Cafe Society
Star Trek Beyond
Hunt for the Wilderpeople
The Shallows
Captain Fantastic
Florence Foster Jenkins
Maggie’s Plan
X-Men: Apocalypse
The Neon Demon
Money Monster
Central Intelligence
The Conjuring 2
The Secret Life of Pets
Everybody Wants Some
Popstar: Never Stop Never Stopping
A Hologram for the King
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Out of the Shadows
Suicide Squad
Pete’s Dragon
The Nice Guys
Angry Birds
Hell or High Water
Sing Street
Swiss Army Man
Mike and Dave Need Wedding Dates
Hello, My Name Is Doris
Midnight Special
The Brothers Grimsby
Eddie the Eagle
Neighbors 2
The Do Over
The Confirmation
The Family Fang
The Jungle Book
The Finest Hours
Zoolander 2
Captain America: Civil War
10 Cloverfield Lane
45 Years
Jane Got A Gun
High Rise
Triple 9
Sleeping With Other People
The Invitation
Batman V Superman
Hell & Back
Kung Fu Panda 3
Pee Wee’s Big Holiday
Knight of Cups

On Inside Out And Being A Bad Parent

Today Penelope and I watched Inside Out. Which is a metaphor for what it did to my tear ducts. First, if you aren’t familiar here is Wiki’s summary: The film is set in the mind of a young girl, Riley Andersen, where five personified emotions—Joy, Sadness, Fear, Anger, and Disgust—try to lead her through life as she moves with her parents to a new city.

The key part there is the end, “moves to a new city.”

Two months ago we moved states away with our three girls. Ages 12, 5, 1. Away from everything that we all have known our whole lives. Family, comfort, jobs, you name it.

In the film, everything for Riley that was joy started to turn to sadness after the move. I started trying to relate the film to everything that has happened since the move. Arguments, fits, laughter, anger, everything. “Has everything that has happened since the move been because of the move?” “Did we fuck up our kids psyche?” “Why don’t we play with them more?” “Why is an animated movie making me feel this?”
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