On Inside Out And Being A Bad Parent

Today Penelope and I watched Inside Out. Which is a metaphor for what it did to my tear ducts. First, if you aren’t familiar here is Wiki’s summary: The film is set in the mind of a young girl, Riley Andersen, where five personified emotions—Joy, Sadness, Fear, Anger, and Disgust—try to lead her through life as she moves with her parents to a new city.

The key part there is the end, “moves to a new city.”

Two months ago we moved states away with our three girls. Ages 12, 5, 1. Away from everything that we all have known our whole lives. Family, comfort, jobs, you name it.

In the film, everything for Riley that was joy started to turn to sadness after the move. I started trying to relate the film to everything that has happened since the move. Arguments, fits, laughter, anger, everything. “Has everything that has happened since the move been because of the move?” “Did we fuck up our kids psyche?” “Why don’t we play with them more?” “Why is an animated movie making me feel this?”
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I am delusional with love.

Next week will be 2 months since we moved. I think everyone is settling in well. I think Penelope misses being close to family but she’s getting there.

I started a job a month ago. Not sure if it’s something I want to keep doing though. I’ve never worked outside full time and that’s all this is and it is hot here. Plus still not sure what to make of the company. So many rules and corporate bs.
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There’s no good in your eyes anymore.

We made it!

We now inhabit San Marcos, Texas. Well, we have for nearly a week now. It’s a great little place. We have a nice apartment that is in a gated community and we live next to everything. No more hour long trips to get to a target or a mall. It’s all right there (pointing over my shoulder.) I will never drive another 24′ moving truck though. That was rough.

It reminds me a lot of when I lived in Orlando but even now, I am closer to things than I was there. Stef starts her new job Monday. I have yet to actively attempt to get a job. But I will soon. There seems to be plenty of opportunities.

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I’m getting close to who I want to be for you.

At the end of my last blog I said we were supposed to close on selling our house on January 9th. That fell through. We ended up packing up everything and putting it in storage and moving in with my parents at the end of December assuming the house sale would go through. Then it didn’t but instead of moving everything back in we just left the house on the market and stayed with my parents. Then we did sell the house for a higher offer in March. I think we closed at the end of March.

My last day at US Sonet is coming up. June 18th. Stefanie got a job in San Antonio and we are moving. Well first we are going to the Bahamas for a couple days and then we are moving. I will miss that people that I have grown to known while at Sonet though. I was there for 4 years and there were plenty of headaches (as there are with all jobs) but there was also a lot of good memories. I mean that is how I ended up liking Austin so much in the first place when I went there for a work trip a few years ago. I learned a ton from that job and I will be forever grateful to have had it.

I’ll be back hopefully after the move with some pictures and such from the first 6 months of the year and just a general update on if we made it to Texas alive or if the chainsaw massacred us.